Behind the Song
Looking at my song journal, I wrote the first version of this song on April 16, 2004.
I assembled the version you hear today mostly from those elements, with just a few changes.
I think the song was inspired by that period of my life after my high school years. After four eventful years, this was a time when I felt discouraged and depressed, after my “dreams had lost some grandeur coming true.” If I had to sum up the song with one word, it would be weary.
The opening lines of the first two stanzas — “I am searching for a memory” / “I am mining for a melody” — were directly inspired by a collection of songs by different artists called “Searching for a Melody,” that a co-worker and fellow songwriter copied for me.
I still like that phrase. It sums up what I’m often doing these days: strumming chords, searching for a melody, breathing life into my lyrics.
I am searching for a memory to get me through the night. A lazy day when I was in my prime a summer afternoon, drenched in light. I am mining for a melody that will put me fast asleep. I'm so tired of all these victories, just another thing I cannot keep. I've seen the mountain and the moon, what's left to do? I searched the earth for something more, but what for? I am reaching for a remedy to help me breathe at last. 'Cause I've been running from these hollow dreams, of a lonely youth, long since past. I am hoping for a holiday where I can get some rest. Far away from all these games we play, from another obstacle, from one more test. I've seen the mountain and the moon, what's left to do? I searched the earth for something more, but what for? I am searching for a memory to help me on my way. A little dream inside this stormy sea, a bit of bravery for one more day. A bit of bravery for one more day. Just a little bit of bravery, so I can make it one more day.